I went to ECU orientation.

Words cannot express my disappointment.

First night, I arrived early. I got into my dorm room. It's not my permanent one, but it looks like a prison cell. I'm told all the dorms are the same. So I sit on my ugly, uncomfortable bunk bed and cry for 30 minutes like a big baby about how my room doesn't even look like a particularly NICE prison cell. I decided to be optimistic and go meet people. "I'll be happy once I'm around other freshman who feel like I do!" So I went to the lobby, played piano, drew, played cards. Met some nice people. I was better. Went to bed. Next day I got sorted into my orientation group.

Got group 13. The Orientation Assistant was quiet, but cool. My whole group looks half dead. I figure once we do some ice breakers they'll open up. We don't do any ice breakers. So I decide to interview people until I manage to strike up a conversation. I learned everyone's life story and none of them even asked for my name. So, OK, my group sucks. I'll hang out with the other groups--but no, we're stuck in our groups until that night. So I just have to last until the recreation part of the evening, right? Well the campus food was bland and made my stomach hurt, so I opted out of the festivities so my mom could take me for something decent to eat. I saw my mom, burst into tears, did my whole "This isn't what I expected waaaaaah" rant but promised I'd stick it out. The honors students couldn't possibly be this impenetrable, right? I'd still be really close with my dorm mates, right? Next day.

Turns out the honors program is basically a scam to force you to live on campus in the first year and to make you pay to study abroad. The only perk is that honors students get first pick of classes all four years, but basically if you get a C in anything you're dropped. Alright, maybe the other criminal justice majors will be some cool kids. ...No, not really, that's all I have to say about that.

To top it all off, they won't let me take calculus 2 or even retake calculus 1 for ABSOLUTELY NO REASON. Something like 'Math 1065 is a prereq for calc 1, so you need it to take calc 2' or some such BS. Doesn't. Make. Sense. I'm 99% positive I got me some college credit in Calc AB. I should be able to AT LEAST take it again. But no. College. Algebra. In which there is at least one test on mean, median and mode. College. Fucking. Algebra. And my advisor has the nerve to tell me to take it to rake in points to boost my GPA. Screw my GPA, I want my calc and I want it NOW.

I really wish I'd applied to more than two schools, because I'm now out of a college education at least for the fall. I now have to apply to NC State TOMORROW for Spring semester and I have to do all this collegiate BS AGAIN. All because I was too stubborn to apply anywhere else.

Pretty much the biggest disappointment of my entire friggin' life.

Peace.